Day 4

I find myself to be repeating my normal, commonplace job, each and every day, abiding by all the rules of Ingsoc and believing Big Brother is watching me right now. This is not how I want my life to be. I do not want to be in a small cubicle all day. I do not want to be one person in a cell of fifty people in a building of 10,000 cells. Normality, ironically, is what sets apart this community.I do not want to spend my days changing the so-called "unchangeable past" and I definitely DO NOT want to go against my own will! I am too tired of changing gut feelings only because I will get vaporized...otherwise known as KILLED! I DO NOT want to live in this society, watching as parents and children alike, dissappear off the face of the Earth. I DO NOT want to be able to make up fictional stories of the past which are taken as truth. I DO NOT want to live in the society I live in!